She, this AE

Un-absolute we falter
Closer to an end of sorts of
Fame as fading fast the light
Falls soft on lost vignette of
Lovers, aught but drawn to
Tighter cling, insisting no,
I say this is the End of all
The Way, the One, my
Fall-back. Wait. My sweet
Ambrosia, angst befalls
And here we wait.

play

restless tatters hither swing
by breezes mindless and if
twister meeting falls
just like
another day i might
approve and
swing

make or break

and if
this time continues and
this situation stays and if
we all remain the same
and if
the daily grind goes on and
our minds made up are strong and if
we never lose control
then all remains intact and
i will never want for home
but if
our worries wear us in and
if decisions bring on pain and if
our courage isn't right
and if
emotions rule the fight and
hasty words are thrown and if
we just can't love for winning
then all will fade at last and
we will wander on our way

mustn't lose this

i glowed
but then i growed
and double-bent i stalked
my spark, cross continent and
more, i staged and rearranged and
left before, that brilliant thing
that dazzling flame, that burned
the heart of me, i stalked and
ate. it shone and then i showed and
we built a higher tower, raised
an effigy of what i should be, strong
and frail. adrenaline-fueled pacing
guided mountain passage, won a
marathon of roses, raced alone.
exhaustion crept, we never
slept or kept our shoulders straight
as posture taught, but oh, we played!
and finally that villain doubt, astounded
found us, rent us, light restrained, but
though it bled a migraine's savage pathway
broad, no, never more than fire damaged,
damned, my hale-spark i retain.

second wind

that place, time and utter

moment, racing, i am not

empowered, merely groan

move on for lack of option,

limping forward. grasp at air

and catch a wisp of faerie thread. a 

sliver, not enough to lift, but 

just a fraction lighter now, a

spider's breath to brace

a dromedary's frame, and step,

just one step more, a nearer 

specter to the end.

Torn by Glue

No reason to cause envy with your
Beauty, they just needn't see.
I'd hide you away forever, take such
Care of you, dear: keep you
Secret and safe and
Mine, and only for
My eyes to drink the joy of you,
My arms to hold and my shoulder to lean
And weep, if you need. The world is cold, and
I am warmth to hold you tight. You'll
Never want to venture, never
Sing but to me. And I will bring
The world to you will give you all you dream, all
Imaginary things, or real. And none can ever
Call you out, or drain your doubt, or
Drown your resonating spark,
but me.

Haiku Again

What is gone is gone
Fading into distance like
Sirens in the night

Crisp and shining fruit
Tart, sweet juiciness tempting
Downfall of mankind

If I fear pain and
Poverty, lonliness, death,
Am I wrong or wise?

Comfort when I cry
Do you want to understand?
Or just hurry by?

Is there a reason
For you to jeopardize me
With your shiny car?

Hillside covered with
Swaying grasses in the wind
Looks like a ballad

Ever my only
Sweetest and bitterest dream
How should I follow?

When truth only hurts
When there is no right answer
Don't ask the question

Prior

That she, that
ever-looming cloud of
used to be; that
scepter, fierce and
wandering:
she bides in wait and
pounces readily,
if ever i should stop
to dream.

hide and seek

when i find love,
or fate decides, she
calls all sorrowful, when
things go ways i wish,
i'll be happy then, i
swear it. i'll grin and
bear til then, but then
oh, then i'll sing, when
circumstances change, and
i have all i wish, i'll
finally feel i fit,
but ah sister,
i breathe,
we only can be happy
when engulfing
happiness

Replenish

Mid thunderous rolls and strikes
Of brightest scion, carried
On and brought on
Faith enough for both to race,
To fly, but then, a monster breached
That berth and scandalized, enough
To render rent that time. And so
Awash in tears I dried, and
Fled upon a face of stone, to
Castle of my own, and distance
Plays my scepter now as
Somehow, naught to be recalled,
You call, and beam to share, in
Detailed revelrie, how dancing
In the sun brings joy
I didn't see

Bread

Bought on discount, brought forever
Still a loyal, bright, believer
Gloved, assaulted, catered, sought
A waif or six inside provide a
Shelter, host, mindless travail,
Tears open walls once solid, thought
Unassailable, and drain, and now
Yet shrinking, sucklings bound to berth
Once proudly hailed, becomes
A stinking, stolid, squalid perch.

Pull

Withdraw to distance, faced and painted
Same, but cleaner, fainter, built to last, to
Either right be left alone or flaunt a newfound
Lover's spectrum, bright as flickers, last
As embers drown in ocean's wisps of
Foam, embellish metaphor of faith once
Given wholly, wrapped and ardent followed,
Fallen, bound to misapplied romance.

I Never

Disco flare spins dancing
Found wallflower face and
Placed her spotlit, wanted,
Bending fall to blend, to
Understand it all, to fit, to
Stand and glare, to steal a
Momentary glamour's part and
Start to finally believe.

Gap

a Vault a
Catacomb surrounded
Chortle, fraught in ever-resonating
Wealth to drown, succumb
And bleach and marrow scratch
Each crack and scar to
Contemplate each vessel bound
to Break and fill, evaluate
Statisticize and scrutinize, refer,
Reorganize and column down
Remember, slow, and
Now?
Default to moment
Touch to burn and realize
Feel, exhale. Ah, this. This
Docile, tranquil, faulted schism,
A mask of purest damask spun
To wither all within, and
Spoil

Wick

As often, wailing softly,
Sighs through budding vines approach,
Enrobe, enliven, briskly snap
Intention on each stretch of
Sunlight sketched upon the bough.

Comprende

Hand out, reach
Offered, not taken, given
Out and only
Home and haven brake
Wilt on meaning
Jovial solitude
Waits for thanks.

Assay

Out, ball's belle, she
Flaunts what easy had to
Youth is bound. Vigor and
Spite for spate of excess
Foliage, blended, bindless
Energizer, go and go, but
Waltz, she glistens, nary
A one to miss, envious,
That corpse-bound stream
Of fountain flame.

Burden

Crossing tease, that
Cursed saiyan, dots and
Jots in crowded filter,
weeper's sheen of mourning,
Blots a silken scarf beneath
Each lashed frame of
Reverence.

Choose

Fine line, tiptoe. Waver not
This way, that side, or off
Any beaten trail ride. Don't
Abuse the rights inherited, or
Take light all given for
Your place in time. Don't
Mock, don't miss or mesmerize
Because all of creation rests
In what you make of this.

sigh

and he smells
warm, and home
and healing. and a
pause, a warmth,
sends seething shining
outward on, and arms
surround and breath
let go.

Celebrate

Save this,
Every scrap of
Edible, each penny stash
And keep it tightly bound and
Watch to keep it safe.
But wait,
Give nothing? Wait
For what, a rainy day?
Alone and cold and
Fed in stringbean.
Where is joy in
Safe?

Mine

And this
Will never fall like
Those, this coveted and
Rescued soul, safe haven
Found will stay and hold.
Will never seek or lose
Like so many waifs
And fools. And this
Will always have a home
And never look for love
Nor question how
Amazing
Wonder how worth
Holding, how so very
lovely or belonged.

Recap

One embrace, or brief
Encounter, mid a room of
Celebration, soul's fire
Fix and shatter both again.

Words brought over, some to
Buffer, some to shame, to
Reawaken deadened loss, to
Unabashed love and lust and
Loss recall and tear away and
Render whirlwind uselessness
This post, this past, this
Felt again a groaning burn.

One conversation, meant
To bolster, shreds to
Gritty shards a mask, deception
Worn and given on a pillar, boulder
Strong, but not, not now as
Built and crushed are
Same and one, and
Shoulder to have bourne
Is gone.

Hallelu

Went wrong, but sung so well until
Synapse collapsed and tenor's
Tenure fell, discord accorded space
And so forgave. And gave,
Too much again, again, and spent
Relentless fall on falling: Halt! Observe
And see what failing fled rose-tinted
Vision, once was asked within enticement's
Wicked spin. Drawn in, redressed, re-Painted
Less, and less a simple, single thread
Or shred of poor, alone,
And actual; grieve, not for loss, nor
Fault nor fervor, nae, weep for
Meeting more than halfway, fleeting
Though it seemed, and mostly
Gone, anyway.

Nap

Dare, how dare this faulted heather
Soft and stabbing, rest and drain
Each blossom bearing dew, but
Dry, but try, but oh! What solemn
Falter, heat sought, julienned and
Thrash, soft kisses wake, but
Can't quite quaking sob abate.

Never Was

The Faeries, they have
Fooled us, brought to mind
Fine prince, fresh charger bold
And told us we were special, fast
On dreams to travel, fain a
Past repression let to ride, a
Friend once thought, a lonely
Night. Those winking demon-fry
Have bound us tight in mesh of
Lye and scrubbed to shine the
Lie about two hearts
Entwined.

Rough

Released, slow, and prowling 

Carnivorous wary, ought bright

Trinity to flee, but "niao" she 

Tarries, keeps and thanks in

Blinks of ardor. Safe, in 

Dark apartment, in

Side.

Lucid

Mitty's mite and mistress might
Coagulated, laced in fur, need
Doughy platform knead, massage
Twist, flour, and out! Out, spot of
Anger, flaw of sad, no! Give it
Back! Clutch kitty's complicated
Shoulder hold, to retch and
Reach and mislaid morning
Seek.

Back

I would! I'd give,
Most moments, this, already
Made of mine and every, fast!
I'd sell, abandon, re-create, oh
Damned, so overdrawn and
Undersold. To ever have undone
The waste. The arms, the ride in
Clearest vein of sky, the
Time and ages by, such
Clarity and soft accepted, no
Rejected, never stood at
Understanding, acted, aced,
Replaced now, damned to have
Anticipated off and
Been a fickle fancy's face.

Self

Arms wrapped, throw, ragged
Draped around and wisped
and whiskered, lakeside held,
Spellbound as Sol awakens, raises
Hell's inferno skyward, out, and
Shreds the mist of Xanadu, I see
I'm home again, I wander in,
and through.

Print

Someone tread

Here

Someone had a 

Reason, halted here and

Felt this frission, echoes of

Past wanton rations, passed

Elusive fragments, caught

And tossed what lived here,

Brought to flickered almost

Life, and

Gone

Stubble

Lumber bore and felled
Each callous' story, sage,
Recall and crackle, bits of
Security, flawed cedar bite or
Ash, to ashes scamper, snug
Secured in mud-wall's mortared
Hole of hull, ship's bounty
Raided, found therein and
Salty season bore, now
Tell the tale of Shanghai'd
Feller, Hoquiam's
Lore.

Tucomen

See,
Really, there the magic
Blossoms, fawns upon yon
Troubled water span to play.
Invigorates, a splash, a cloud-brought
Bath, such cleanse, to chill and thicken
Breach of bow's brow, hue defines and
Flees from silken sailing plane
Mid tremors, sky of roiling
Blast, hold fast to
Armrest, land approach
And stay, but See the magic
Here at play.

Nightcore

Posture so extravagantly
Placed, and lighting set just
So, platformed and corseted and
Ready to blow, to heave and sing
With all the manic rage to hiss,
Conveniently forgetting there's a
Sky outside the studio, a set of
Arms long waiting little star to
Hold, but light's addiction ravishes,
Leaves shell to gape, as
Character escapes.

Beat

Jungle's heart, each swath and
Vine traversed, in effort, grime and
Will, though no emergent safe zone
Flickers, Is. This compromise, to
Go, to pace, to groan. For
Halt's unknown; a growing
Terror fades as onward, on
Obsessive march and crawl
To goal of going goes along. But
Bear no ill, nor clutch, but share
And give, as if to stave karma's
Edged sword aside and wan, or
Purchase thy redemption, gracious,
Gravitate though wavering, some
Effigy-laced stonework shines
Imagined in exhausted eyes, and
Lashes lie, belie, and fall into
Welcoming Sandmans' company.

Disco

Grooves amass in space, retention
Gains affixed in convolution, staid and stoic
Hologram bereft of mention, shed a shred
Of glow, suspension, ace yon soporific dream
Augment each moment, dangled, thread worn
Thin, this ribbon lent to tangled tresses
Rent and shredded, worn
To lovely exhaustion, spate
And greater ages sang these tones
Among lost searchers, crossed
In dancing crowd,
Alone

Zone

Asked no answer, 

No reply creaked downy 

Coverlet aside or soft awakened

Muffled cry. No shoulder rub, nor clutches

Taken, stealthy glances gathered, no; no

Sigh for dream encountered found

Or hand on hand a morning cold

Abolished now as each

In amity must go.

File

Altogether paced, replaced
Oft worn and aft, or scarred
Rough blemished, brought to
Bearing, fought by tor, or boulder,
Cleft, bereft of fancy, trudging on
Upon a tundra fresh and
Sparing none.

Tuck

Some spaces feel like
Home, though not my own,
Or even close, but someone's
Refuge, curled and toasty,
Mild and wanted, someone
Loves here, comforts here, and finds
An impact, reason, justifies a
Word of worlds. Some
Places just embrace
And wait.

Flow

Honey, sail away with

Golden, starry glass in hand

And ride wild serpents, cling

To none, just slide and 

Hide, atomies behind by
Crudely rendered

Sideways lines.

Flinch

Asunder
We are over
Ribbon knot undone
And sober, salient, and
Weary, search for
Balance, search
For meaning, for
A reason, three, or
Twenty, I
Abandoned that impairment,
Fled in angered visage, after
Rant and wailing, failed to make you
See, that though your shoulders
Quaked and eyes afraid, I
Meant to render comprehension
Not to frighten, but
Awaken
You
Withdrew and shrank from
Fist of fury,
Villain I, but
Did I ever
Swing?

Siber

Roundhouse hefts of frozen flay

Awake, astonish iris bright as

Azure, open gaping crater steals,

Ravishes away breath puffs and mind

Leaves only moment, being.

This

and Here

and what is Now?

and I and All 

and nothing is the same.

13 point 1

...and on.

Drear, though I signed up

For this. Paid up

For this, I lag. A limp

A sip, another shade-wisp

Desert's winter chill a bliss

A stirring drum beat chorus,

Times with heart thuds, jars,

A friendly shoulder by, a flash

Did I smile? Did I make the fancy

Face to show, to keep a

False-laid memory enjoyed, 

Save pained intensity, what

Madness brought this anguish

Begged and traveled, cried to 

Pace, to place in pointless 

Phoenix race?